I hate myself for all the words I say
Which I detest from the bottom of my heart
I hate myself for all the things I do
Which never reflect in my list of tasks
I hate myself for tasks I fail to do
Which I’d love at the top of stack
I hate myself for all my actions
which make me feeble or depressed
I hate myself for all the inaction
Which makes me suspect myself
I hate myself for all the time
Which I drain to please others
I hate myself for all the drama
Which everyday life uncovers
I hate myself when I waste myself
And dread that my life is a waste
I hate myself when I rely on others
To assist me win life’s race
I hate myself when I can’t muster courage
To fly against the breeze
I hate myself for the life I live
Which I never imagined in dreams
Linked to dVerse Open Link Night #207
My Feelings My Freedom 
“I hate myself for tasks I fail to do
Which I’d love at the top of stack” – that’s the only thing that grows in my life without any care. If my bank balance would have grown like that! One can only wish.
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Now should come the affirmations of gratitude, which are just as plentiful.
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Now go and make a lists of why you love yourself, smiles ~
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It’s so depressing but sadly a lot of people go through these feelings of hate and forget to love themselves for the things that are. You’ve captured how they feel well.
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Sentiments understood. But the path of least resistance, loving thyself, may be well worth your while.
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I think a list like this will not help… a list of things you love would help as well.
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I know that feeling. Try to be kind to yourself – I love the idea from other commenters of a twin poem with affirmations!
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well.. a list from which we cannt escape..
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Ah, it hurts to read this. So much of who I thought I was, was just wrong, now I am left with a hypocrite, and an idiot, who thought she was smart.
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I know. The lists of tasks that we wish to do is always a long one 🙂 Thanks for your comment!
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I know. There are plenty of things to be grateful for. Thanks Frank!
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I certainly will 🙂 Thanks Kim!
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Sorry, Grace!
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Thanks Smitha! It’s not a great feeling to be victimised by these thoughts but unfortunately, we all do!
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Thanks for reflecting back. I shall keep that in mind 🙂
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Well, I am generally an optimistic person and write a lot about it but some days you are upset about just everything that happens in life… Thanks for your kind suggestion Bjorn!
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Thanks Claire! It was just one of those days when everything around seems annoying. I know life cannot continue like that and we have to follow the light. Thanks for your words of wisdom 🙂
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True Akhila!
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Well, I wouldn’t put it like that..just a passing phase i guess. I’m sure things will improve soon 🙂
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Vandana you have the sweetest smile and a very understanding nature. Hope you are feeling much better now and this phase has passed.
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Thank you so much for your concern and loving words dear. I’m hopeful it shall pass soon 🙂
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I know it will. Just hold on and have faith. May God be with you.
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I hope so too! Thanks for your wishes 🙂
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Heartfelt, but so sad. I hope you find your own beauty and worth.
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Thanks Sarah. It was just one of those moments when nothing seems right. Thanks for your concern and wishes. Have a great weekend!
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