Have I lost my way?

Or is this the path I was supposed to take?

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Was I going against the destiny till now?

Or is it now that I am challenging it?

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I’m in constant argument with my mind

Trying to decipher the maze quilled by my thoughts

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I have become my own critic,

My actions don’t appease me anymore

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I’m sailing alone in forlorn sea

Trailing the path led by waters

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It doesn’t matter if I reach the shore or not,

I feel trapped in water and on earth alike

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Future seems obscure, past- a mystery

I can’t feel the ground under my feet

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My troubles change their dynamics everyday,

My desires manifold, I keep shoving them aside

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I’m trying to breathe;

I’m trying to infuse life in my being

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I’m taking it day by day,

I cannot expect more from life or myself

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I pray for peace, I pray for balance

I pray for the ability to live in the moment!

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©Vandana Bhasin